sin sin sin

Expectation goes lower.
Heart sank slower.
There goes a christmas.
and here comes the new year.

People of my age probably go partying throughout the night while i went to this fuck place in our neighbouring country. It sucks and everywhere is congested. I started to realise that i dont have much friends.Perhaps, i closed my door too often and never really let any new people come into my life. I dont feel sad. Coz as long as my parent and siblings are there by my side, I'm already contented with life.

School reopen gonna be fun..

Jojo

Pending-KIV

Its christmas day! I did nothing meaningful except for wishing people merry christmas everywhere i go.Oh yeah, Im spending my christmas at genting. YES. GENTING AGAIN. and its ultimate boring can.

Im desperate over cars.......and i think i went too overboard that i should restrain abit and let my dad decide. Maybe i should forget about driving and do something else rather bugging on the same issue.It wasnt fair to make them pay for the expenses. After all, i aint rich babe who lives in big house and expect to drive big car.NO NO NO.I am not even working as well. SO CONTINUE TO DREAM ON.

Jojo

P/s: i hate my self-centred mind and sometimes i wish i die. Damn it.

Drive

I passed my driving for the first time! Gotten 12 Demerit points which is quite shocking to many people who heard about my driving incidents.HAA! My legs were shaking throughout the test.But im glad its over.It wasnt so hard after all

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Sehhhhh

Jojo

welcome back.

Im Crazy.
But Im Realistic.
I know what i am doing.
And thats life to me.

I smile when i feel like i need to because i deserve it too..Im glad to be back. Welcome back Jojo.

P/s: Thats what real to me.

First Huayian gone

Sad to say.
One of the HYSS student passed away.
Transports is efficient but at the same time deadliest tools to mankind.
To the man i have never come to know, Malik.

Lead life to the fullest people. U will never know whats gonna happen next.

Jojo

P/s: life is too short to hold back

Ignorant bitch.

There is no harm reading self-improvement book!
Sure you are ignorant about yourself bitch.
Thinking that you are the perfect soul in the world?
THAT IS NO WONDER YOU ARE STILL SINGLE AT 30's.
FRANKLY, I PITY YOU.
-Thats to my sis colleague who think she is fantastic and very COCKY!

Sis moved out of the house today to her new home. Everyone is happy at home and i'm gonna head to IKEA to get some furnitures for my room. MY GIRLY ROOM. HEE HEE..

Jojo

Just lose it.

I believe everyone have started their revision.
But hell, why am i procrastinating?
I feel freaking useless today
I must study now.

I spent my weekend at home and town. Most of the time stoning.I hope i can get back in shape and keep my brain AWAKE MOST OF THE TIME. i lost the motivation, i lost the interests and i am losing my dream soon.What a day

Jojo

Good Weather
Good Life
Good Start

NOTHING FOR ME.

I didnt get anything in TOWN.
HOW CAN THIS BE HAPPENING.

Even mum managed to buy a dress at tommy hilfiger while sis bought some zara dresses.As for me, I couldnt FIND ANYTHING! I was sooo fed up that i nearly dump my money on the Fred Perry Polo T-shirt. I just couldnt find anything suitable and reasonable. Gosh, so little time left. But anyway, i am still happy for my mum as it aint easy for her to find a suitable dress.. So whats next next next. I dont know. I spoke to dad earlier that I wanted to chip in money for the car in future. So that i can have a sense of owning for the car. I should really start to plan for the future and get the money rolls in.

I just dont give a damn.
At least, Not anymore.

Jojo

Gogogo

I hope i wont die tonight
This heartache wont go away
And by the way, I dun wanna be the next silent death


Fate is in your hand and Life is up to your management. I dont lead life with philosophy nor any stupid principles that make myself ultimate inflexible. I will be a fun loving person if the situation allows. And i go nasty when things just aint going right rather than going my way. I have been to heaven and went straight to hell when i did silly mistake. I give good advise to people even though i am screwed!That's silly. Now i want to help myself. That is to be myself. Easy come easy go. No more avoiding or looping. Just gogogogo..

Jojo

HELLO

Shit incident occurs.
Shit modules to clear.
Shit Economic is here.

What the fuck?

First and foremost, My laptop went dead and there is no way to revive it even though i head to the service centre. OH YEAH!I WILL NEVER BUY ACER PRODUCT. And they will be the top of my blacklist.

School is ultimate busy that i hardly have the time to come online. Yeah yeah MIA MIA MIA. thats what i know best can. Project is like hanging and exams are around the corner. Super ultimate fucked up man. No motivation to study coz i get wore out very easily as if i'm having some terminal illness.

I think some branded stores must have cast some black magic on me. Making me hunger for more brandies. Worst thing is i aint even rich.thats the fuck fuck fuck things. I love my dad and mum. So i aint gonna spend their money of course!

Oh did i mentioned CARS ARE DRIVING ME NUTS TOO?.I LOVE THEM all and I EVEN DREAMT OF THEM. I will drive them and its just the matter of time.HAHAHAHA. and i was laughing to myself

Jojo

Let it out.

I thought it was freedom at that instant
But the next minute, I got locked up
I go What the fuck and even snapped.
But things wont change.

Possessive = Hatred

She's gonna put a Video camera in my room just to see what i am up to after she got married. But you know what?If i ever see any video Camera, Im gonna fucking pluck it out and throw it to ur face. And whoever i wanna bring home aint gonna be your concern by then. That's how you show love? Then i am telling you its stupid and go save those money for your fucking facial.

School = Never ran out of things to do

School is ultimate busy. Gosh. Everyday seem to have tonnes of things to do and its no better than work though i am able to head home as early as 1pm. Screw those projects and tutorials.

There aint pretty pictures or anything interesting in any of my entry. I aint fantastic nor am i as noble as anyone else out there. Suddenly, I feel like a Plain Jane. Or perhaps, I am always one and i didnt realise.

Jojo

P/s: Family always come first.

I have a Dream

I have a Dream

School have started from quite sometime. So far so good. Friends keep coming in though i missed the halloween party.Fortunately, We are still able to enjoy ourselves despite the split. As usual, meet at the canteen and share lotsa crappy jokes before tutorial.

I want to learn golf
I want to start planning for business
I'm Picking up my english fast
I want to have my first car key when i reach 24
I am independent in many ways
And hell, I can live alone
No, i wasnt a spoilt brat though my dad has always been there for me
I have a dream.


Jojo

P/s: I hope i could pass my driving.

At this time, I'm supposed to be getting ready for school but then i decided to skip school.Just today and i have valid reason for not going. Well, my pussy is bleeding profusely.And the feeling was so ultimate uncomfortable! That wasnt the worst. The freaking cramp really caught me off guard and i go walking around like zombine unable to concentrate. PMS sucks totally.

Oh yeah, I'm back from Genting! Though its totally no life but i gotten my virgin trip to the Malaysia Casino.Played the table card game with many senior citizens.Didnt manage to win much on table also. But anyway, the shittiest thing is I won $RM450 on jackpot. Okay la. Not as much as what you guys seen at las vegas or Macau. But thats a compliment can? and i feel remarkable about it. HAAAA..

So tired & pain & Bored

Jojo

P/s: Being a vegetarian sucks to the MAX. But i will keep my endurance on going..

WHY WHY WHY

Gonna go Genting this coming thursday even though school reopen already!Wee~

Anyway school is ultimate boring. All my mates just happened to split into different classes. Gosh. Wonder how life gonna be like!!
will it be boring?
will i get to know some handsome?
will there be good project mates?
Any pretty babe to see?

However,above all that was mentioned, my main objective was to STUDY HARD and SCORE FOR THE LAST SEMESTER!

Keep the fire burning and i know many freaking friends like ming and that high class cantonese will still catch me in lecture hall having fun together.

Time flies so soon that i started to miss those good old days.

Jojo

P/s: Love life and cherish your family.

A good friend of mine. They call it!

HEY FREN!

Just because you start the game earlier that doesnt mean you got the damn right to mock the others.

Just because you are once my best friend that doesnt mean you can offend me directly without considering my feelings.

I STILL REMEMBER EVERY WORDS YOU SAID DURING THE LAST BASKETBALL GAME.I REMEMBER THEN AND I REMEMBER NOW.

If you are doing this just to get even with alvin's incident then seriously You can do whatever you want and i cant be bothered about it.Take it as i'm dead and i dont care.FUCK OFF.

PEOPLE. LET ME REPEAT. I have ALREADY BROKE OFF WITH ALVIN. K. Its for real and its been HAPPENING FOR SOMETIME ALSO. SO IF U ARE GONNA FUCKING MESS MY LIFE WITH MY PAST, I AM GONNA FUCK UR LIFE.

OH YEAH. If you dont seem to get a life. I can be a "good friend" introducing some good SOUL SEARCHING BOOKS. THANKS

Jojo

I got no time for people who doesnt even have this thing call BRAIN.

FUN FUN AND MORE TO COME

I love driving~ Wee.

I know i'm quite a smart alex but its fun to drive faster than a Mitsubishi Lancer during my driving practice. I just got the urge to speed and my instructor goes " slow down! dont need to speed up unnecessarily" Ha!speeding made my day.

P/s: Its like fireworks in my heart. Shall not reveal further!

Fun thing that is

Ran out of things to do
Ran out of fun
Ran out of time
Ran out of love

But fortunately, School is reopening in a week time and everything is gonna start from Bottom/Zero/Nothing. I'm gonna put in alot of efforts in studies and socialising.

Basketball game with ex sch mates is another fun thing in life.So much energy requires for defending and so much laughters during the game.Some of them even got me real impressed with stuning moves.Good Footwork Jasper.

Frankly.I'm contented with life and thats from the bottom of my heart.

Jojo

P/s: Seriously, You dont have to promise me anything. You just have to get on with your life/lies.

Craziest day ever

I did something crazy yesterday.
Splurging over 500 bucks on shirts in town

-Tommy Hilfiger Sweater
-Ralph Lauren Shirt
-Two Arnold Palmer shirts for dad.

Plus I bought a new phone,LG VIEWTY.

And the shit thing is i aint even earning. But i was happy.
Those are my savings and i felt worth it.LOL

Maid aint at home for the month! Bloody hell! Theres gonna be hell chores to do and tonnes of clothes to wash.WTF?

Jojo

P/s: Look out for Model of successful people and start copying their lifestyle.

Flavor of life

Bowling makes me think of you.

But i guess i'm gonna play the game alone though it seems not as fun as group play.Thats the way life is after the destruction and i am learning to adapt it.

Was playing bowling alone at the Jurong superbowl and 2 games ended easily within 15 minutes costing me $9.20.

I love life now though there are still some parts of me struggling.Eventually i will choose to move on. Lead life well.

Jojo

P/s: I aint as easy as ABC.

Happy~

I'm heading towards fun and success~

Had steamboat for dinner and after dinner joined my secondary school mates for basketball game. Its fabulous. All of us kept playing till heavy rain pours, forcing us to seek shelter. Thats what real to me. I was laughing my lungs out can. Wee yang is as usual hilarous while yixiang is forever getting all the insults and sarcasm.

P/s: My condolences to Jasper & family whose grandma passed away lately. I know the pain and hope you and your family are coping well. Last but not least,God bless Joel's dad for the operation. Its gonna be a successful one.

Take care people and lead life to the fullest

Jojo

Planned

1. Get an organiser
2. Start saving for a good bag
3. Gym and swimming every Monday Wednesday and Friday
4. Get a good haircut at Kim Robinson (Millenia Walk)
5. Shopping Clothes for school reopen
6. Change my current phone into whatever brand which pleased me
7. Study well when school reopen
8. Have lotsa fun with my friends
9. Hope Joel's dad get well
10. Spend more time with my family

Mum shock me in the morning by giving me 1k.One thin purple note!Holy Cow! I'm gonna start planning for the bulletin above.Oh well,maybe save it all in bank.What a wonderful day though i'm at home. Weeeeee

Jojo

Money rolling

The taste of freedom once again.

I read the book again to refresh my mind.
The decision is firm and set now.
Finally!

I'm looking forward to school reopen and i serious had enough with MIA

I love my mum and dad!. Hiak hiak!

Keep the money rolling..$$$$

I told you i'll lost something. But eventually i gain something.

Worth it People!

Jojo

Its just a piece of paper filled with germs

Money means alot to her. What about hell notes? LOL

That old hag at home is nuts about money today.Maybe when she passed on, i will try my best to make her a trillionaire by burning more hell notes. God damn it. She did nothing to bring up my dad and uncle albert! And i dont think she deserve a single tweety bits of respects from us.Come on, We dont owe her a single cents!Dad always ask me to talk less and there will be less trouble. What the fuck? Let her go around making things difficult for the maid and our family? But whatever that is, for all i know her brain is filled with shit. Constipated shit.

Worthless people dont deserve the time
Unreasonable people dont deserve the respect
Philanderer don't deserve a good wife

Jojo

Pretence

Envy wasnt even in my dictionary. I lied
Let future take care of stress. I wonder
Do what you want to. I hesitate

So what did i see in life? All the positive of others except mine.
Bear with me if i get a little low in esteem with myself today.
Blame PMS.

I am not extraordinary nor do i come from a wealthy family.
I am just a layman who is studying for better work prospect in future.
I want to have some achievements and i will work very hard to prove my worthiness.

I might lose something today. But that doesnt mean i wont gain anything.Think.

Jojo

(P/s: I detest procrastination,slacker,"Prata-Man",Male Chauvinism and Fickle minded people who doesnt know the important of time.)I really hate it to CORE.

Stupid Girl

Stupid girl, stupid girls, stupid girls
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
Porno paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl

Go to Fred Segal, you'll find them there
Laughing loud so all the little people stare
Looking for a daddy to pay for the champagne
(Drop a name)
What happened to the dream of a girl president
She's dancing in the video next to 50 Cent
They travel in packs of two and three
With their itsy bitsy doggies and their teeny-weeny tees
Where, oh where, have the smart people gone?
Oh where, oh where could they be?

Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
Porno paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Maybe if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl

(Break it down now)
The Disease is growing, it's epidemic
I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it and I'm going crazy
I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in
That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition
That's what I wanna see
Disasters all around (Disasters all around)
The World in despair (The World in despair)
Their only concern
Will it fuck up my hair

Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
Porno paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Maybe if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl

[spoken]
Oh my god you guys, I totally had more than 300 calories today.
That was so not sexy.
Good one, can I borrow that?
[Vomits]
I WILL BE SKINNY!
(Do ya thing, do ya thing, do ya thing,
(like this, like this, like this)
Pretty will you fuck me girl, silly I'm lucky girl
Pull my hair I'll suck it girl, stupid girl!
Pretty will you fuck me girl, silly I'm lucky girl
Pull my hair I'll suck it girl, stupid girl!

Maybe if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, stupid girl!

Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
Porno paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Maybe if I act like that, flipping my blonde hair back
Push up my bra like that, I don't wanna be a stupid girl

Be a smart girl. Choose your life wisely

Money money money

It wasnt a sloppy choice people. So what if i've Chose marketing as my final year elective. Friends are making it sounds like i am doing some prostitution business.I'm Really laughing while typing this down. But no matter what. I HAVE NO REGRETS.Coz i know where i will be going and what i want to be. So why dont we stop talking about it now and let future do the talking for me? Thank you.


Global stock Market crashing, bank and insurance company on the verge of being bankrupt. People got their fingers burnt every ten years and greedy people will never learn their lesson. I hope suicide rate wont climb any higher and keep retrenchment as low as possible. Peaceout!

P/s: Money is not the world.While Health is what we should take note. Take care

Jojo

2 Deaths

Death is peaceful

It hurts to watch your loved ones lying in the coffin and was slowly pushed into the incinerator.The oven that was filled with burning flames gonna melt the deceased's body with high temperature. The last time i saw grandma was this New year.I still miss her every now and then though she had passed away for more than 7 months.I will walk into her room whenever i'm free. The buddha Beads my sis bought for her was kept in the drawer and the amulet which i gave her was still there. She is with us all along! Just not physically.And thats what i strongly believe.

Coach passed away faster than what i have expected.
The man who rely on me heavily for every matches.
The man who dotes me more than anyone besides my parent.
It aint easy fight for him. From the day Diabetic ate his eyes making him blind to virus attacking his brain. We know thats terminal and he might be leaving us very soon. Finally, the day has come. It was 23 August 2008 and i was on the train heading to work. My mate messaged me and said that He's gone.Well.I hope its peaceful for him.But what sadden me the most was his MUM is still living.And i guess thats life.Certainly Cruel.

2 Deaths this year. And i dont expect more to come as time goes by.
Take care people.

Jojo

Chillz

Hell~

Working at COMEX was like going to hell and I think i lost a few pounds after the end of 4 days. I've met Nastiest human-being ever! When you don't give them their free gifts, they will hog your counter and talk nastily to you till you give up. However, Lets not generalise all Singaporean as KIASU people coz i have seen some who are pretty fine and doesnt really care about what prize they will be getting and simply take and go.

Heaven~

I dont have to describe what i have been doing. But frankly, I feel damn freaking happy and loved. So That's about it people. Life is cool and rock on..LOL

Jojo

Starting from today! Be a bitch

DOORMAT OR DOORBITCH? YOU CHOOSE.

It's Stupid to be a "nice girl"(we call them DOORMAT)Get this straight to your brain or give yourself a slap to wake up. You gave away everything including your soul to someone who doesnt even appreciate a single Bit of it. So why care? Why bother about those baking cakes/cookies, Making cards and strip even before they ask for it?HAA. Time to get down to business and be a real bitch. Thats the deal. When things doesnt come in your way. DITCH THEM.COZ BITCHES LOVE THEMSELVES.

Swim Swim Swim
Jog Jog Jog
Sit-Up Sit-up Sit-up
Walk walk walk

Catch me when school reopen people.
Hotbod is on the way.

Jojo

"You will feel uncomfortable and upset in the beginning
Those hopes and dreams all gone with the wind
But look on the positive side of life
You will see the light"

Its only a phone

Even buying phone is pissing me off so badly.
God damn it!
I HAVE THE DAMN MONEY
I JUST WANT THE DAMN PHONE
AND I'M DESPERATELY WANTING IT TODAY

So why cant i just get a phone, make myself happy and fuck off from the shop.

GRR. MUST BE THE PMS ACTING UP AGAIN. FUCK IT.

Gonna go for jogging today Coz I feel horrible.Shrucks.

Jojo

I am my boyfriend

Wanted to reward myself with a LG Touchscreen Phone.But i guess i was out of luck! Its either sold out or simply having a long queue.Nevermind, hopefully there will be more luck tomorrow.

Love comes and go.
Its all right if someone let me down,
Walk out of my life abruptly and
Leaving debris behind for me to settle

I am fine people

My plan for the rest of my life

Is to be myself
Do things which i've always wanted to do but was restricted
Reward myself with gifts like a boyfriend
Boost my confidence

I've enjoyed myself alot today. Those china food and those sweet sweet dessert.Thank you my friends.

Jojo

I think i'm in.

Signs of an Abusive Relationships
Important warning signs that you may be involved in an abusive relationship include when someone:

-Harms you physically in any way, including slapping, pushing, grabbing, shaking, smacking, kicking, and punching
-Tries to control different aspects of your life, such as how you dress, who you hang out with, and what you say
-Frequently humiliates you or making you feel unworthy (for example, if a partner puts you down but tells you that he or she loves you)
-Coerces or threatens to harm you, or self-harm, if you leave the relationship
-Twists the truth to make you feel you are to blame for your partner's actions
-Demands to know where you are at all times
-Constantly becomes jealous or angry when you want to spend time with your friends

Things wasnt going right at all.Now that problem has been solved and i am so far away from it. I just wanna get a life.In fact, I deserve that.

Jojo

Suddenly You see the light to success.

Even if the world leaves you behind, Your family will always stand by your side. It took me so much pain to understand such a simple logic. My sis was right.

He was right. But i refused to listen.
She was right. But i let it slip out of my mind.

Now that the mess is here. I have to clean it.

Its all right to show my grieves
Its all right if the world is laughing at my joke.
I'm learning from my mistake and starting afresh.
I'm ready to face the world once more and
I want to lead life my way.
Thou its been umpteens time.
but to this day,I've decided to move on.

I promise not to let myself down

Jojo

"You might be laughing and smiling thinking that i deserve it.
Well, I'm happy to make the mistake because it makes me stronger".

Plus. You know who you are.

FUCK BITCH

RANT RANT RANT.

The old hag at home goes crazy today. Got into a huge quarrel with this fucking bitch early in the morning. Calling her grandma is already giving her 832974923174 pieces of face. If she gonna disturb my dad tonight. I swear i aint gonna let her off that easy for the rest of the night.OLD!DEMENTED!HAG-LIKE!EVIL! She is everything except positive.Hopeless!

Jojo

Like human do

Comfortable life~

I have decided to quit my job at sunglass hut and lead a more comfortable life with my family and friends. I'm in the midst of building up my self-esteem.Sure it does improve my life compared to those days.No more trying nor doubting. Do it and the outcome will prove it all. Last semester is on the way and its just another half year before heading back to those hectic life AGAIN. Back to the kind of life where i have to face monday blue,decide what to wear in the morning,squeeze into a train that's filled with different races of people, looking forward to lunchtime and Head home on time. Nothing special and thats something typical.

Procrastinate stress and let tomorrow take care of it

For now, Just be happy.

Jojo

New day.

Positive people attracts positive people
Negative people attracts negative people

I'm letting go things and this enable myself to breathe better. Its all right to hit the bottom once in a while as life is unlikely to be perfect. In fact, I'm already counting myself fortunate to be the bottom as i was given an opportunity to start all over again with my conscious and mindset right.

Its easier to change yourself than changing the world.

New day starts today..

Jojo

Screw up people. Hatred

I have alot in mind and its impossible to put each and every single issue down in words. If only I am a memory stick, I hope you can use a card reader to read every single shit inside my head.


I know i might sound like a loser to many of you. But people I really feel very sad for myself.I Couldnt make myself stand as strong as what i'm used to after this attachment. I feel very negative about everything and i am already labeling myself Useless. I don't know what had happened during these period but there seems to be a disorder. And i suspect that's mild depression. I hope i could blame someone and that person will definitely be my attachment supervisor. You people wont know how much hell my partner and i have been through. From mocking to insulting us openly. If he is a good supervior, he wouldn't have gone to another department and badmouth colleagues from other departments. He wasnt as popular as what you see on the surface!On our last day of work, People came up to us and told us things like "Its been hard on you to work under that kind of boss" Some even named him as "evil godfather". To sum up all, He's a Jerk next door.

In the end, I didnt score well for my attachment even my final report screw up. But i've learnt alot for the last 5 months.My conclusion is: If you able not able to work with your boss, Please kindly quit and work with someone who u are comfortable with. My peers are lucky enough to meet good bosses who goes easy on them. But its all right. They have not meet the screw up ones in reality. Many more will come. And i hope i will be more successful than my supervisor.

Jojo

I know i'm fat. I need time. You loser. LOL

Stop Dieting and start exercising

I'm Getting sick of people emphasizing that i've put on weight over the months.Even the fucking trim eye brow aunty laugh at me, asking me why am i so fat now.Fuck.I find that pretty rude and coz i desperately need her service at that moment therefore i just let the matter rest and act blur about it. But frankly, this is not her first time criticising customer. The minute she on the light and start to scan through your face, She goes "Look at ur dark rings, Look at ur blemish,Look at this and that" as if you're a freak.Motherfuck!I'm there for eye brow trimming and not asking for any facial related shit!So don't come and act smart by stirring my feelings and trying every ways and means to make me paranoid about myself.You and ur basic equipment aint helping much either.Seriously, I dont see her dark ring any better than mine. And it wasnt fair coz she got her fucking makeup on and oh yeah, she even boost about her fake lashes.LOL.Only poor whore does that. Plus, I dont see her pretty at all while her actions make me feel that she is trying VERY HARD to BE like a singaporean when in fact is one god damn fucking malaysian.I'm Done! LOSER


But anyway,I've decided to get my butt off the chair this time round and do some exercises.Here's what i did for the entire noon! i went for a Hot afternoon badminton game with my maid,cousin and cousin's friend.Though my maid suck at badminton but i bet she enjoyed herself alot!And that's not all, My cousins and i went on for the 4km Jog from Lakeside Park to Chinese garden.Its a good run and i'm gonna carry on and on and on and on till i am aneroxic.

I've promised to show you the best in me and everything. I mean it then i mean it now.Goodnight people.

Jojo

Wont be home

Dont know if dieting still on

It's Pre-National Day people. Kids were shouting and screaming underneath early in the morning.It's pretty annoying especially when i've slept extreme late last night.Feel like strangling those kids.But anyway, I feel rather good and refresh. Gonna head to work at 2.30 and that's about it. Oh yeah. I wont be home tonight.

Jojo

Just Breathe

Lost Count day of dieting

Woke up in the noon with my both eyes red and extremely itchy.The idea of going to work is sick. Like i say. Another day, Just breathe.

I thought

You called up in the middle of the night, Using all your might to explain all the hidden reasons which we both once overlooked. I agreed that i wasnt a good lover in the beginning and tend to keep things to myself as i thought that certain issues are best to be left unsaid. Indeed, "I thought" could have killed our relationship or any other aspects in life.I remember my supervisor at Supreme Court once talk to me openly on his work aspects. "There is no maybe, I thought or might be, I Say I want a Certain answer and its whether you understand or not. Yes or No ". You see, this applies to both work and life. You can never get away with some stupid guessing coz the same shit will still happen again and again. Affecting our competency and the people around us.

I'm in the midst of learning to be a better person. I hate to lie because people will never forget once you start to use it. Just when i was about to move on with a changed heart and soul, those problems which i've once get away came back and hit me real hard. I'm working very hard to create a win-win Situation.But somehow, Reality told me it's impossible. Frankly, I don't care and i believe i can do. So just move it.

Jojo

I'm Not Superwoman

My love will get you home

Lost count day for dieting

Excessive Drinking aint bringing me to cloud nine. In fact, I feel terrible that night. And i swear to the almighty that i will not step into a club ever again.Hangover is worst than shit. 35 bucks goes to watering the plant.

Back home

Attachment ended and we bid Farewell to the Supreme Court. No more Pool Showdown, No more gyming with my fellow colleagues and No more basketball games. I'm doing nothing at home and working at sunglass hut doesnt really brighten my day. I need a breakaway.And i let everyone down.I'm Sorry

Jojo

Its on again

OBAR IS ON AGAIN.

YAY!!

Jojo

You said it best. When you say Nothing at all

Day 8 of Dieting

Obar was cancelled! Oh well. I guess i was fated to stay home. Been watching taiwanese and Hongkong Drama series.Fuck!i was cursing and swearing at those drama lor! These stories always end like a fairytale. Even if it happens in reality! It's just plain luck that u bitches gotten the right one for yourself. Luck aint a fair thing to talk about either.

P/s: The best way to read a man is to forget about whatever he said and concentrate on his actions

I'm losing interests in this thing call relationship plus i wont force myself to taste it ever again.FUCK IT.

Jojo

My world

Day 7 of my Dieting

Yesterday was incredible!We Played Ping Pong at our workplace.My jaw drop when SS brought us to an office which have absolutely nothing except for a table tennis table, Bats and ping pong balls.Supreme Court sure have very good staff welfare eh? Oh yeah. Did i mentioned that the Acting registrar and A judge was talking to me when i was at the gym? So excited Can.Moreover, the Judge was jogging on the treadmill next to mine!

P/s: For your Info, He's the judge for the Dave teo's hearing.Seh.

It's an uphill climb for me people!As you all know, I'm handling my life with due care as i have nothing left to worship or to rely on except for a five cents worth plan and a dollar worth of determination.I want to do this alone and if everything goes according to plan, there shouldnt be any hindrance along the way towards the peak.

Anyway. I've passed my FTT.LOL.FINALLY.

Jojo

Coz you left me
Just when i need you the most

Resolution

Day 6 of Dieting

I've skipped Day 5 because i ate way too much for my farewell lunch and buffet dinner for Shiying's early brithday celebration with the the F4(Including Sharlin). As usual, i Swipe my Card for payment coz there aint Atm around. Ate a few mussels, Oysters, abalones, Sashimi and some octopus. There goes 25 bucks.Haa

Wake up early in the morning with my stomach feeling a little unwell. Indigestion could be the case.Oh! and my right ear! It's still blocked! Gonna visit the family doctor again. Shit. Dont blame the weather. Blame the durians instead.

Resolution after attachment

Gonna hit the alleybar, have a few sips of martini, forget about money forget about love and enjoy the house music. Life couldnt be any better.
Anyway, I aint alcoholic.

I'm sick of people sometimes. And i'm forever reminding myself not to waste that 33% of my time trying to guess what's on your mind. In fact, I'll be fully utilising my life making it to the fullest!so stop the mind game, let it go and leave me alone.

Oh yeah. I'm Leaving and wont be back ever again. I know it's been umpteen times but from this very moment onwards, I'm gonna lead life my way. FREED

Jojo

Nothing special.

Day 4 of my dieting

There aint any particular issue for me to blog today. The office is as usual filled with busy people typing endlessly as though they are completing a novel. I'm thinking twice about my future. Whether my hand is holding the right document or my mind is focusing on the right plan. Am i gonna be working in the audit sector? Will i be earning 5 digits Salary which i've promised previously? Can i marry a good man who doesn't die young? Will i drive an Audi Convertible? I'm questioning myself most of the time. If i've gotten the right goal/aim or whatever you wanna name it. I wouldnt be puzzled or having second thoughts. I would have said Yes. I'm earning 5 digits salary in 10 years time. I will be working, starting from auditing sector and I will marry the man of my dream then make my audi convertible the wedding car.

Happily ever after don't exist at all.Ha! Don't tell me cinderella aint gonna have problem with a flock of girls chasing after prince charming.If so, then cinderella must be a lesbian. what about the beauty and the beast? will the beauty vomit each morning when she roll over on the bed and realise that its the same hairy beast face over and over again? Or perhaps sick of eating the fur of the beast whenever they started to kiss? Very funny indeed!


It's Must have been love.
but it's over now.
It must have been good
But i lost it somehow.

JOJO

Empty yet still strong

Day 3 of my Dieting

Randy Changed my life.~

I was reading the last lecture by Randy Pausch for the entire evening.Like what was mentioned, Being Happy is equivalent to a fish speaking of the importance of water. Sometimes, Life makes you miserable by bringing you to the worst aspect of life.However when u did the right thing, Karma gonna settle among itself and strange enough you'll gonna find youself sitting on top of the world once again.How come? It was only through those misery then we'll learnt the lesson and avoid making the same mistake over again.I named it as the "tough way to rectify life".

Anyway,

I'm feeling empty lately.I got no inkling about what is going on and how come it happens..Perhaps,something is missing and i cant possibly smile without that missing puzzle.I guess i took mistake harshly and gotten myself extremely upset. I'm so Dying to change yet i didnt give myself enough time.Ignorant aint always a bliss people. Sometimes i was wondering the things which i am trying to show or should i say what have i projected myself to others? Sense of Pride? dignity? or some silly hot headed personality? I hate the idea of being a selective listener and life insists that i face the reality.Shit.

Maybe a hungry person is an angry person. Oh yeah.today is the third day of my dieting. Everything seems well and i aint having craving for food.It's a Good sign.Really good sign

Near to success.

JOJO

Hell has just begun

My world crashed real hard this time.I suppose that's karma and i am bound to lose every single thing which i own.I know it aint forever but i just gonna bear with it for a while more and soon I'll be on top of the world once again.

I'm down with virus attack for the past few days. Got a couple of MC meaning dock 2 days pay. Motherfuck. Must be the Damn weather. By the way, I've spent 3/4 of my pay on Dental and medical.

Next, I've met ghost at home. I dunno. That's my first encounter. I was on the phone with shiying then suddenly the baby toy just happen to play the music and move by itself. I don't know whats that suppose to mean but i aint scare. I have lost everything and there is nothing i will be afraid of.

It's such a shame that i have put on weight since the start of the attachment. I guess working really makes a person fat. Anyway to tackle that, I'm already in the midst of dieting and exercising. Gonna shed a few pounds, Wash away my unhappiness and let those memories fade with time. I just need to move on.

I didnt score well for my Attachment this time round. I guess i didnt keep cool.so yeap.It doesn't matter.Take it as an experience and i will get there.Hopefully i'll soar higher than you. Thank for the encouragement though it's more like an insults than motivation but anyway, I will remember you for life.Yes.Vividly.


It's okay to feel bad and sad sometimes. I will be fine. I just need to breathe. Maybe some car spin tonight? I hope so..

Jojo