DOORMAT OR DOORBITCH? YOU CHOOSE.
It's Stupid to be a "nice girl"(we call them DOORMAT)Get this straight to your brain or give yourself a slap to wake up. You gave away everything including your soul to someone who doesnt even appreciate a single Bit of it. So why care? Why bother about those baking cakes/cookies, Making cards and strip even before they ask for it?HAA. Time to get down to business and be a real bitch. Thats the deal. When things doesnt come in your way. DITCH THEM.COZ BITCHES LOVE THEMSELVES.
Swim Swim Swim
Jog Jog Jog
Sit-Up Sit-up Sit-up
Walk walk walk
Catch me when school reopen people.
Hotbod is on the way.
Jojo
"You will feel uncomfortable and upset in the beginning
Those hopes and dreams all gone with the wind
But look on the positive side of life
You will see the light"
Wednesday, 27 August 2008
Monday, 25 August 2008
Its only a phone
Even buying phone is pissing me off so badly.
God damn it!
I HAVE THE DAMN MONEY
I JUST WANT THE DAMN PHONE
AND I'M DESPERATELY WANTING IT TODAY
So why cant i just get a phone, make myself happy and fuck off from the shop.
GRR. MUST BE THE PMS ACTING UP AGAIN. FUCK IT.
Gonna go for jogging today Coz I feel horrible.Shrucks.
Jojo
God damn it!
I HAVE THE DAMN MONEY
I JUST WANT THE DAMN PHONE
AND I'M DESPERATELY WANTING IT TODAY
So why cant i just get a phone, make myself happy and fuck off from the shop.
GRR. MUST BE THE PMS ACTING UP AGAIN. FUCK IT.
Gonna go for jogging today Coz I feel horrible.Shrucks.
Jojo
Sunday, 24 August 2008
I am my boyfriend
Wanted to reward myself with a LG Touchscreen Phone.But i guess i was out of luck! Its either sold out or simply having a long queue.Nevermind, hopefully there will be more luck tomorrow.
Love comes and go.
Its all right if someone let me down,
Walk out of my life abruptly and
Leaving debris behind for me to settle
I am fine people
My plan for the rest of my life
Is to be myself
Do things which i've always wanted to do but was restricted
Reward myself with gifts like a boyfriend
Boost my confidence
I've enjoyed myself alot today. Those china food and those sweet sweet dessert.Thank you my friends.
Jojo
Love comes and go.
Its all right if someone let me down,
Walk out of my life abruptly and
Leaving debris behind for me to settle
I am fine people
My plan for the rest of my life
Is to be myself
Do things which i've always wanted to do but was restricted
Reward myself with gifts like a boyfriend
Boost my confidence
I've enjoyed myself alot today. Those china food and those sweet sweet dessert.Thank you my friends.
Jojo
I think i'm in.
Signs of an Abusive Relationships
Important warning signs that you may be involved in an abusive relationship include when someone:
-Harms you physically in any way, including slapping, pushing, grabbing, shaking, smacking, kicking, and punching
-Tries to control different aspects of your life, such as how you dress, who you hang out with, and what you say
-Frequently humiliates you or making you feel unworthy (for example, if a partner puts you down but tells you that he or she loves you)
-Coerces or threatens to harm you, or self-harm, if you leave the relationship
-Twists the truth to make you feel you are to blame for your partner's actions
-Demands to know where you are at all times
-Constantly becomes jealous or angry when you want to spend time with your friends
Things wasnt going right at all.Now that problem has been solved and i am so far away from it. I just wanna get a life.In fact, I deserve that.
Jojo
Important warning signs that you may be involved in an abusive relationship include when someone:
-Harms you physically in any way, including slapping, pushing, grabbing, shaking, smacking, kicking, and punching
-Tries to control different aspects of your life, such as how you dress, who you hang out with, and what you say
-Frequently humiliates you or making you feel unworthy (for example, if a partner puts you down but tells you that he or she loves you)
-Coerces or threatens to harm you, or self-harm, if you leave the relationship
-Twists the truth to make you feel you are to blame for your partner's actions
-Demands to know where you are at all times
-Constantly becomes jealous or angry when you want to spend time with your friends
Things wasnt going right at all.Now that problem has been solved and i am so far away from it. I just wanna get a life.In fact, I deserve that.
Jojo
Suddenly You see the light to success.
Even if the world leaves you behind, Your family will always stand by your side. It took me so much pain to understand such a simple logic. My sis was right.
He was right. But i refused to listen.
She was right. But i let it slip out of my mind.
Now that the mess is here. I have to clean it.
Its all right to show my grieves
Its all right if the world is laughing at my joke.
I'm learning from my mistake and starting afresh.
I'm ready to face the world once more and
I want to lead life my way.
Thou its been umpteens time.
but to this day,I've decided to move on.
I promise not to let myself down
Jojo
"You might be laughing and smiling thinking that i deserve it.
Well, I'm happy to make the mistake because it makes me stronger".
Plus. You know who you are.
He was right. But i refused to listen.
She was right. But i let it slip out of my mind.
Now that the mess is here. I have to clean it.
Its all right to show my grieves
Its all right if the world is laughing at my joke.
I'm learning from my mistake and starting afresh.
I'm ready to face the world once more and
I want to lead life my way.
Thou its been umpteens time.
but to this day,I've decided to move on.
I promise not to let myself down
Jojo
"You might be laughing and smiling thinking that i deserve it.
Well, I'm happy to make the mistake because it makes me stronger".
Plus. You know who you are.
Thursday, 21 August 2008
FUCK BITCH
RANT RANT RANT.
The old hag at home goes crazy today. Got into a huge quarrel with this fucking bitch early in the morning. Calling her grandma is already giving her 832974923174 pieces of face. If she gonna disturb my dad tonight. I swear i aint gonna let her off that easy for the rest of the night.OLD!DEMENTED!HAG-LIKE!EVIL! She is everything except positive.Hopeless!
Jojo
The old hag at home goes crazy today. Got into a huge quarrel with this fucking bitch early in the morning. Calling her grandma is already giving her 832974923174 pieces of face. If she gonna disturb my dad tonight. I swear i aint gonna let her off that easy for the rest of the night.OLD!DEMENTED!HAG-LIKE!EVIL! She is everything except positive.Hopeless!
Jojo
Wednesday, 20 August 2008
Like human do
Comfortable life~
I have decided to quit my job at sunglass hut and lead a more comfortable life with my family and friends. I'm in the midst of building up my self-esteem.Sure it does improve my life compared to those days.No more trying nor doubting. Do it and the outcome will prove it all. Last semester is on the way and its just another half year before heading back to those hectic life AGAIN. Back to the kind of life where i have to face monday blue,decide what to wear in the morning,squeeze into a train that's filled with different races of people, looking forward to lunchtime and Head home on time. Nothing special and thats something typical.
Procrastinate stress and let tomorrow take care of it
For now, Just be happy.
Jojo
I have decided to quit my job at sunglass hut and lead a more comfortable life with my family and friends. I'm in the midst of building up my self-esteem.Sure it does improve my life compared to those days.No more trying nor doubting. Do it and the outcome will prove it all. Last semester is on the way and its just another half year before heading back to those hectic life AGAIN. Back to the kind of life where i have to face monday blue,decide what to wear in the morning,squeeze into a train that's filled with different races of people, looking forward to lunchtime and Head home on time. Nothing special and thats something typical.
Procrastinate stress and let tomorrow take care of it
For now, Just be happy.
Jojo
Tuesday, 19 August 2008
New day.
Positive people attracts positive people
Negative people attracts negative people
I'm letting go things and this enable myself to breathe better. Its all right to hit the bottom once in a while as life is unlikely to be perfect. In fact, I'm already counting myself fortunate to be the bottom as i was given an opportunity to start all over again with my conscious and mindset right.
Its easier to change yourself than changing the world.
New day starts today..
Jojo
Negative people attracts negative people
I'm letting go things and this enable myself to breathe better. Its all right to hit the bottom once in a while as life is unlikely to be perfect. In fact, I'm already counting myself fortunate to be the bottom as i was given an opportunity to start all over again with my conscious and mindset right.
Its easier to change yourself than changing the world.
New day starts today..
Jojo
Friday, 15 August 2008
Screw up people. Hatred
I have alot in mind and its impossible to put each and every single issue down in words. If only I am a memory stick, I hope you can use a card reader to read every single shit inside my head.
I know i might sound like a loser to many of you. But people I really feel very sad for myself.I Couldnt make myself stand as strong as what i'm used to after this attachment. I feel very negative about everything and i am already labeling myself Useless. I don't know what had happened during these period but there seems to be a disorder. And i suspect that's mild depression. I hope i could blame someone and that person will definitely be my attachment supervisor. You people wont know how much hell my partner and i have been through. From mocking to insulting us openly. If he is a good supervior, he wouldn't have gone to another department and badmouth colleagues from other departments. He wasnt as popular as what you see on the surface!On our last day of work, People came up to us and told us things like "Its been hard on you to work under that kind of boss" Some even named him as "evil godfather". To sum up all, He's a Jerk next door.
In the end, I didnt score well for my attachment even my final report screw up. But i've learnt alot for the last 5 months.My conclusion is: If you able not able to work with your boss, Please kindly quit and work with someone who u are comfortable with. My peers are lucky enough to meet good bosses who goes easy on them. But its all right. They have not meet the screw up ones in reality. Many more will come. And i hope i will be more successful than my supervisor.
Jojo
I know i might sound like a loser to many of you. But people I really feel very sad for myself.I Couldnt make myself stand as strong as what i'm used to after this attachment. I feel very negative about everything and i am already labeling myself Useless. I don't know what had happened during these period but there seems to be a disorder. And i suspect that's mild depression. I hope i could blame someone and that person will definitely be my attachment supervisor. You people wont know how much hell my partner and i have been through. From mocking to insulting us openly. If he is a good supervior, he wouldn't have gone to another department and badmouth colleagues from other departments. He wasnt as popular as what you see on the surface!On our last day of work, People came up to us and told us things like "Its been hard on you to work under that kind of boss" Some even named him as "evil godfather". To sum up all, He's a Jerk next door.
In the end, I didnt score well for my attachment even my final report screw up. But i've learnt alot for the last 5 months.My conclusion is: If you able not able to work with your boss, Please kindly quit and work with someone who u are comfortable with. My peers are lucky enough to meet good bosses who goes easy on them. But its all right. They have not meet the screw up ones in reality. Many more will come. And i hope i will be more successful than my supervisor.
Jojo
Monday, 11 August 2008
I know i'm fat. I need time. You loser. LOL
Stop Dieting and start exercising
I'm Getting sick of people emphasizing that i've put on weight over the months.Even the fucking trim eye brow aunty laugh at me, asking me why am i so fat now.Fuck.I find that pretty rude and coz i desperately need her service at that moment therefore i just let the matter rest and act blur about it. But frankly, this is not her first time criticising customer. The minute she on the light and start to scan through your face, She goes "Look at ur dark rings, Look at ur blemish,Look at this and that" as if you're a freak.Motherfuck!I'm there for eye brow trimming and not asking for any facial related shit!So don't come and act smart by stirring my feelings and trying every ways and means to make me paranoid about myself.You and ur basic equipment aint helping much either.Seriously, I dont see her dark ring any better than mine. And it wasnt fair coz she got her fucking makeup on and oh yeah, she even boost about her fake lashes.LOL.Only poor whore does that. Plus, I dont see her pretty at all while her actions make me feel that she is trying VERY HARD to BE like a singaporean when in fact is one god damn fucking malaysian.I'm Done! LOSER
But anyway,I've decided to get my butt off the chair this time round and do some exercises.Here's what i did for the entire noon! i went for a Hot afternoon badminton game with my maid,cousin and cousin's friend.Though my maid suck at badminton but i bet she enjoyed herself alot!And that's not all, My cousins and i went on for the 4km Jog from Lakeside Park to Chinese garden.Its a good run and i'm gonna carry on and on and on and on till i am aneroxic.
I've promised to show you the best in me and everything. I mean it then i mean it now.Goodnight people.
Jojo
I'm Getting sick of people emphasizing that i've put on weight over the months.Even the fucking trim eye brow aunty laugh at me, asking me why am i so fat now.Fuck.I find that pretty rude and coz i desperately need her service at that moment therefore i just let the matter rest and act blur about it. But frankly, this is not her first time criticising customer. The minute she on the light and start to scan through your face, She goes "Look at ur dark rings, Look at ur blemish,Look at this and that" as if you're a freak.Motherfuck!I'm there for eye brow trimming and not asking for any facial related shit!So don't come and act smart by stirring my feelings and trying every ways and means to make me paranoid about myself.You and ur basic equipment aint helping much either.Seriously, I dont see her dark ring any better than mine. And it wasnt fair coz she got her fucking makeup on and oh yeah, she even boost about her fake lashes.LOL.Only poor whore does that. Plus, I dont see her pretty at all while her actions make me feel that she is trying VERY HARD to BE like a singaporean when in fact is one god damn fucking malaysian.I'm Done! LOSER
But anyway,I've decided to get my butt off the chair this time round and do some exercises.Here's what i did for the entire noon! i went for a Hot afternoon badminton game with my maid,cousin and cousin's friend.Though my maid suck at badminton but i bet she enjoyed herself alot!And that's not all, My cousins and i went on for the 4km Jog from Lakeside Park to Chinese garden.Its a good run and i'm gonna carry on and on and on and on till i am aneroxic.
I've promised to show you the best in me and everything. I mean it then i mean it now.Goodnight people.
Jojo
Friday, 8 August 2008
Wont be home
Dont know if dieting still on
It's Pre-National Day people. Kids were shouting and screaming underneath early in the morning.It's pretty annoying especially when i've slept extreme late last night.Feel like strangling those kids.But anyway, I feel rather good and refresh. Gonna head to work at 2.30 and that's about it. Oh yeah. I wont be home tonight.
Jojo
It's Pre-National Day people. Kids were shouting and screaming underneath early in the morning.It's pretty annoying especially when i've slept extreme late last night.Feel like strangling those kids.But anyway, I feel rather good and refresh. Gonna head to work at 2.30 and that's about it. Oh yeah. I wont be home tonight.
Jojo
Wednesday, 6 August 2008
Just Breathe
Lost Count day of dieting
Woke up in the noon with my both eyes red and extremely itchy.The idea of going to work is sick. Like i say. Another day, Just breathe.
I thought
You called up in the middle of the night, Using all your might to explain all the hidden reasons which we both once overlooked. I agreed that i wasnt a good lover in the beginning and tend to keep things to myself as i thought that certain issues are best to be left unsaid. Indeed, "I thought" could have killed our relationship or any other aspects in life.I remember my supervisor at Supreme Court once talk to me openly on his work aspects. "There is no maybe, I thought or might be, I Say I want a Certain answer and its whether you understand or not. Yes or No ". You see, this applies to both work and life. You can never get away with some stupid guessing coz the same shit will still happen again and again. Affecting our competency and the people around us.
I'm in the midst of learning to be a better person. I hate to lie because people will never forget once you start to use it. Just when i was about to move on with a changed heart and soul, those problems which i've once get away came back and hit me real hard. I'm working very hard to create a win-win Situation.But somehow, Reality told me it's impossible. Frankly, I don't care and i believe i can do. So just move it.
Jojo
I'm Not Superwoman
Woke up in the noon with my both eyes red and extremely itchy.The idea of going to work is sick. Like i say. Another day, Just breathe.
I thought
You called up in the middle of the night, Using all your might to explain all the hidden reasons which we both once overlooked. I agreed that i wasnt a good lover in the beginning and tend to keep things to myself as i thought that certain issues are best to be left unsaid. Indeed, "I thought" could have killed our relationship or any other aspects in life.I remember my supervisor at Supreme Court once talk to me openly on his work aspects. "There is no maybe, I thought or might be, I Say I want a Certain answer and its whether you understand or not. Yes or No ". You see, this applies to both work and life. You can never get away with some stupid guessing coz the same shit will still happen again and again. Affecting our competency and the people around us.
I'm in the midst of learning to be a better person. I hate to lie because people will never forget once you start to use it. Just when i was about to move on with a changed heart and soul, those problems which i've once get away came back and hit me real hard. I'm working very hard to create a win-win Situation.But somehow, Reality told me it's impossible. Frankly, I don't care and i believe i can do. So just move it.
Jojo
I'm Not Superwoman
Sunday, 3 August 2008
My love will get you home
Lost count day for dieting
Excessive Drinking aint bringing me to cloud nine. In fact, I feel terrible that night. And i swear to the almighty that i will not step into a club ever again.Hangover is worst than shit. 35 bucks goes to watering the plant.
Back home
Attachment ended and we bid Farewell to the Supreme Court. No more Pool Showdown, No more gyming with my fellow colleagues and No more basketball games. I'm doing nothing at home and working at sunglass hut doesnt really brighten my day. I need a breakaway.And i let everyone down.I'm Sorry
Jojo
Excessive Drinking aint bringing me to cloud nine. In fact, I feel terrible that night. And i swear to the almighty that i will not step into a club ever again.Hangover is worst than shit. 35 bucks goes to watering the plant.
Back home
Attachment ended and we bid Farewell to the Supreme Court. No more Pool Showdown, No more gyming with my fellow colleagues and No more basketball games. I'm doing nothing at home and working at sunglass hut doesnt really brighten my day. I need a breakaway.And i let everyone down.I'm Sorry
Jojo
Saturday, 2 August 2008
You said it best. When you say Nothing at all
Day 8 of Dieting
Obar was cancelled! Oh well. I guess i was fated to stay home. Been watching taiwanese and Hongkong Drama series.Fuck!i was cursing and swearing at those drama lor! These stories always end like a fairytale. Even if it happens in reality! It's just plain luck that u bitches gotten the right one for yourself. Luck aint a fair thing to talk about either.
P/s: The best way to read a man is to forget about whatever he said and concentrate on his actions
I'm losing interests in this thing call relationship plus i wont force myself to taste it ever again.FUCK IT.
Jojo
Obar was cancelled! Oh well. I guess i was fated to stay home. Been watching taiwanese and Hongkong Drama series.Fuck!i was cursing and swearing at those drama lor! These stories always end like a fairytale. Even if it happens in reality! It's just plain luck that u bitches gotten the right one for yourself. Luck aint a fair thing to talk about either.
P/s: The best way to read a man is to forget about whatever he said and concentrate on his actions
I'm losing interests in this thing call relationship plus i wont force myself to taste it ever again.FUCK IT.
Jojo
Friday, 1 August 2008
My world
Day 7 of my Dieting
Yesterday was incredible!We Played Ping Pong at our workplace.My jaw drop when SS brought us to an office which have absolutely nothing except for a table tennis table, Bats and ping pong balls.Supreme Court sure have very good staff welfare eh? Oh yeah. Did i mentioned that the Acting registrar and A judge was talking to me when i was at the gym? So excited Can.Moreover, the Judge was jogging on the treadmill next to mine!
P/s: For your Info, He's the judge for the Dave teo's hearing.Seh.
It's an uphill climb for me people!As you all know, I'm handling my life with due care as i have nothing left to worship or to rely on except for a five cents worth plan and a dollar worth of determination.I want to do this alone and if everything goes according to plan, there shouldnt be any hindrance along the way towards the peak.
Anyway. I've passed my FTT.LOL.FINALLY.
Jojo
Coz you left me
Just when i need you the most
Yesterday was incredible!We Played Ping Pong at our workplace.My jaw drop when SS brought us to an office which have absolutely nothing except for a table tennis table, Bats and ping pong balls.Supreme Court sure have very good staff welfare eh? Oh yeah. Did i mentioned that the Acting registrar and A judge was talking to me when i was at the gym? So excited Can.Moreover, the Judge was jogging on the treadmill next to mine!
P/s: For your Info, He's the judge for the Dave teo's hearing.Seh.
It's an uphill climb for me people!As you all know, I'm handling my life with due care as i have nothing left to worship or to rely on except for a five cents worth plan and a dollar worth of determination.I want to do this alone and if everything goes according to plan, there shouldnt be any hindrance along the way towards the peak.
Anyway. I've passed my FTT.LOL.FINALLY.
Jojo
Coz you left me
Just when i need you the most
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